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[Book Review] The Long Journey Home by Cassandra Pierce

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The Long Journey Home

Cassandra Pierce

What rating would you give it?
2/2.5 of 5 Stars (at best… :/)

Give us a summary.

(Goodreads Description)
For eighteen years, Wren has lived isolation with his guardians, Grum and Krulch, in the heart of a deep, peaceful forest. His life is tranquil except for the doubts that torment him: why does he look so different from his parents, and how did two male ogres manage to birth a small, pale creature like Wren?

Everything changes when he accidentally wanders too far from home and comes upon an entire village of people who look like him. One in particular, a scribe’s apprentice named Valerus, is simply the most beautiful being Wren has ever seen.

His elation soon turns to fear when the people of the village tell Wren he is one of their own and must remain with them—abandoning the ogres who raised him. Though he would love to stay with Valerus and build a new life, he doesn’t want to do it at the expense of the life that made him. But if he wants to enjoy a promising future, he’ll have to find a way to unravel his mysterious past.

What did you think of the book?

Although this isn’t considered a YA book, I’d definitely classify it as one. It wasn’t a bad read, it just wasn’t all that good, either. I think there were too many vague urges trying to find purchase for it to be a cohesive tale. I was torn reading it, because there were moments I liked… but far too many I didn’t. :/

Any warnings you wish to make for your readers?

To be… confused. I think this story fell short on its grand notion. Two daddies? Check. Displaced teen? Check. Warring worlds? Check. What any of this has to do with one another to make a story that actually has meaning and depth outside of what I already mentioned? Yeah… big, fat red X there.

Does it count towards any reading challenges?

Tons and tons, per usual.

Would you recommend this book?

I doubt it. I just… ughh… I can’t even explain WHY it was so irritating a read. I think it stands to reason that it fell short on so many levels it’s just not worth bothering other people about.

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Reviewed by AMS (amomentsilence)

Publisher:  Less Than Three Press
Publication Date: July 2015
Format: eBook, RvC
Pages: 42
Genre & Themes: Fantasy, M/M Relationships,
YA, Fairy Tales, Romance, Prejudice, Orges,
Insta-love, Family, Isolation,
Age: Adult
Reviewer: AMS (amomentsilence)
Source: Provided by NetGalley
Challenge2015 Good Reads Reading Challenge (157),
52 Books in 52 WeeksYou Read How Many Books?,
Read A Million Pages105 Reading Challenge,
2015 New To You Reading Challenge,
NetGalley & Edelweiss Reading Challenge,
2015 Graphic Novel and Comic Reading Challenge
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[Book Review] Americosis Vol. I by Haydn Wilks

Americosis Vol. 1

(Americosis, #1)

Haydn Wilks

What rating would you give it?
4 of 5 Stars

Give us a summary.

(Goodreads Description)
A naked man arrives in New Mexico claiming to have traveled through time.
He says that he’s America’s savior.

A bizarre sexually-transmitted infection in New York takes control of people’s bodies and burns them out in an incessant drive to infect others.

And a Presidential candidate is conversing with angels.
His aides think he’s crazy.
The electorate might not agree with them.

It could all be madness. It might be the apocalypse.

Americosis.

An epic genre-bending mash-up of sci-fi, horror, thriller & dark comedy.

VOLUME 1
This short novella introduces the series. It’ll leave you begging for more…

What did you think of the book?

This book was weird as fuck, and yet… I just couldn’t put it down! When I got to the end, I was just in shock because: how the hell could it end like that?!?! I still have questions that need answers! Like what the hell is going on with the presidential candidate and who is this Savior? And just… EVERYTHING! I won’t lie, I am thoroughly intrigued and demand more immediately!

Americosis is a fast-paced short that keeps you engaged and intrigued ’til the very bitter not-end. The description is exceptionally accurate: this is a book of madness and violence and crazy things happening one after the other, all leading up to… something. It’s an introduction to what will undoubtedly be a fantastic tale of a world on the edge of falling apart — and no one knows it yet.

Except maybe The Savior.

You never know. He could actually be who he says he is.

I was getting such 12 Monkeys vibe from that guy. I just hope it lives up to all the hype I’m throwing at it.

I am thoroughly disturbed and intrigued and wanting more of Americosis! This is one title I’ll be putting on my watchlist for when the next book comes out!

Lastly – this is to any potential readers – I suggest reading this in one shot instead of over several days. As an example, I started reading this yesterday during my lunch break, but couldn’t finish it then. Here I picked it up two hours ago and had to just reread everything again because I was SO FRIGGIN LOST. The good thing though, is that it’s a quick read. So just give yourself time to get through it in a single go! :3

Any warnings you wish to make for your readers?

There is some strong religious and political talk in this book. The opinions of which might irritate some (as they did me, at first). There is also strong language (use of the g-damn word), violence (gorey, too!), and sexual situations.

Does it count towards any reading challenges?

Tons and tons, per usual.

Would you recommend this book?

 

Was that even a legitimate question?

Of COURSE I recommend this weird sh—

GO GET A COPY NOW!

 

Reviewed by AMS (amomentsilence)

Publisher:  Dead Bird Press
Publication Date: July 2015
Format: eBook, RvC
Pages: 61
Genre & Themes: Dystopian, Thriller, Horror,
Novelette, Science Fiction, Short, Time Travel,
Supernatural, Fantasy, Mystery, Politics,
Sexually Transmitted Diseases, Theory Talk,
Religion vs. Science
Age: Adult
Reviewer: AMS (amomentsilence)
Source: Provided by Publisher upon request
Challenge2015 Good Reads Reading Challenge (135),
52 Books in 52 WeeksYou Read How Many Books?,
Read A Million Pages105 Reading Challenge,
Ethereal 2015105 Reading Challenge,
2015 New To You Reading Challenge

Books ‘N Tunes #7: Trees, Volume #1

Welcome one and all to the next installment of my Books ‘N Tunes Reading Challenge!

I wanted to get this one in before the end of the month, so here we go! Hope y’all enjoy~ 

Trees (Volume #1)
by Warren Ellis & Jason Howard

Publisher: Image Publishing
Publication Date: February 2015
Format: ebook, ARC
Pages: 160
Genre: Graphic Novel, Comics, Fiction, Fantasy,
LGBTQUIA / QUILTBAG, Science Fiction,
Dystopian, Belonging, Aliens, Paranoia, Social
Collapse, Military, Gender and Sexual Identity,
Dark Fiction, Social Constructs, Morality,
(Self) Identity, Corruption
Age: YA / Adult
Reviewer: AMS (amomentsilence)
Source: Provided by NetGalley
Challenges: 2015 Good Reads Reading Challenge (62),
52 Books in 52 WeeksYou Read How Many Books?,
2015 LGBT Reading Challenge (VARIOUS),
Read A Million PagesBooks N Tunes,
105 Reading Challenge (Category: 1, 2, 3, 4, 10),
2015 New To You Reading Challenge (Brand New
Series), NetGalley & Edelweiss Reading Challenge,
2015 Graphic Novel and Comic Reading Challenge

SUMMARY

(synopsis taken from GoodReads)

Ten years after they landed. All over the world. And they did nothing, standing on the surface of the Earth like trees, exerting their silent pressure on the world, as if there were no-one here and nothing under foot.

Ten years since we learned that there is intelligent life in the universe, but that they did not recognize us as intelligent or alive.

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Summarize in a word?:
ZEFUCK.

RATING
4 / 4.5 STARS!

THOUGHTS & REVIEW

Oh… that was so messed up, but DAMN was it good!

Okay, so this one collects issues 1-8 in a single volume, and THANK GOODNESS FOR THAT. I don’t think I would have understood a single thing if I had to read it piece by pieces.

Tress takes place all over the world: militant China, a research facility in Svalbard, Somalia, the slums of Italy, what’s left of New York, and so much more. Each place has its own set of problems and unique characters that all add to the overall story and the cryptic message.

Why are the Trees here? Are they alive? Do they think? And if they do… what do they think of us pathetic humans scurrying around beneath them?

Another question: Can they communicate with us? And if they can… have they been doing so all along? Were we just too deaf, dumb, and blind to see… to listen… to respond back? And what will they do if we take too long to respond?

My biggest issue with Trees was the pacing — which is SLOW AS FUCK. You’ll have to have patience while reading this one, but by the end of the 8th issue, you’ll definitely being gasping for some of the twisted turn of events that take place. It also leaves us on one HECK of a cliffhanger, so this is my main reasoning for only giving the comic 4, MAYBE 4.5 Stars.

Also some seriously depressing shit happens towards the end that had my mouth hanging open for days because of how… graphic and heart-wrenching it was.

SO ONCE AGAIN – NOT A PERFECT 5.

As to any warnings I would give…

Some sexual content, vulgar language, violent imagery and the like. You know… the usual. Some major character deaths as well. :<

Would I recommend?

Oh yeah. Although I still hold to the belief that it would be better if whoever reads it was able to do so along with volume 2 (which I haven’t read yet, but anticipate to be just as good if not better than the first).

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SONG & LYRICS

1. System of a Down – Toxicity

~LYRICS IN THE SONG THAT RESONATE STRONGEST~
( Pfft~ You mean, all of them? XD )

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Looking at
life through the eyes of a tire hub

Eating seeds as a pastime activity
The toxicity of our city, of our city

New, what do you own the world?
How do you own disorder, disorder
Now, somewhere between the sacred silence, sacred silence and sleep
Somewhere between the sacred silence and sleep
Disorder, disorder, disorder

More wood for their fires, loud neighbours
Flashlight reveries caught in the headlights of a truck

Eating seeds as a pastime activity
The toxicity of our city, of our city

New, what do you own the world?
How do you own disorder, disorder
Now, somewhere between the sacred silence, sacred silence and sleep
Somewhere between the sacred silence and sleep
Disorder, disorder, disorder

New, what do you own the world?
How do you own disorder
Now, somewhere between the sacred silence, sacred silence and sleep
Somewhere between the sacred silence and sleep
Disorder, disorder, disorder

When I became the sun
I shone life into the man’s hearts
When I became the sun
I shone life into the man’s hearts

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Reason for choosing this song

System of a Down’s, Toxicity  just seemed to capture the corruption and disorder of the world at large after the landing of the “Trees.”

I wouldn’t say the song is from the POV of any one character. I think it can be split between the different POVs that we see in the comic… The different cities, and the different states and levels of disarray, confusion, and disorder that’s proliferating the many cities’ walls, and furthermore corrupting the people within.


Books ‘N Tunes #6: Tame A Wild Human

Welcome back to another installment of my Books ‘N Tunes Reading Challenge!

This week is actually something of a repeat as I’ve got nearly an entire playlist ready for this one, too. Difference is… well… YOU’LL SEE.

And, also like last week, my review of this book is much more rant than review. BUT IT’S NECESSARY. Read it. You will understand.

Tame A Wild Human
by Kari Gregg

Publisher: Riptide Publishing
Publication Date: January 2015
Format: ebook, ARC
Pages: 80
Genre: M/M Erotica/Porn, QUILTBAG /
LGBTQUIA, Dark Themes & Dark Fiction,
rape, gangrape, humilation, sexual
humilation, lots and lots of sex, non-con,
stockholm sydrome, abuse, explicit savage
violence, hatefucking, psychological breaking,
psychological and sexual training,
objectification, abduction, drugging, dystopia,
paranormal, dark fantasy, torture, D/S,
dominance & submission, heavy kink,
degradation, deep-throating, gagging, throat
rape, master & pet, pet training, inter-species,
captivity, sexual torture, pleasure slave,
spanking, forced seduction, confinement,
pain&pleasure, bondage, murder
Age: Adult (EXPLICIT)
Reviewer: AMS (amomentsilence)
Source: Provided by NetGalley
Challenges: 2015 Good Reads Reading Challenge (42),
52 Books in 52 WeeksYou Read How Many Books?,
2015 LGBT Reading Challenge (MM),
Read A Million PagesBooks N Tunes,
105 Reading Challenge (Category: 1, 3, 4, 9),
2015 New To You Reading Challenge (Brand New
Publication & New Author To Me),
NetGalley & Edelweiss Reading Challenge,

SUMMARY

(synopsis taken from Publisher)

Drugged, bound, and left as bait on the cusp of the lunar cycle, Wyatt Redding is faced with a terrifying set of no-win scenarios. Best case: he survives the coming days as a werewolf pack’s plaything and returns to the city as a second-class citizen with the mark—and protection—of the pack. Worst case: the wolves sate their lusts with Wyatt’s body, then send him home without their protection, condemning him to live out the rest of his short life as a slave to the worst of humanity’s scorn and abuse.

Wyatt’s only chance is to swallow every ounce of pride, bury his fear, and meekly comply with every wicked desire and carnal demand the wolf pack makes of him. He expects three days of sex and humiliation. What he doesn’t expect is to start enjoying it. Or to grow attached to his captor and pack Alpha, Cole.

As the lunar cycle ends, Wyatt begins to realize that the only thing to fear more than being sent home without the pack’s protection is being sent home at all.

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Summarize in a word?:
DEPRAVED.

RATING
WILL NOT STAR.

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Reasoning: This could easily be 2 or 5 Stars because of how weirdly jfkndlajkdaln it is

THOUGHTS & REVIEW

. . .

I… have SO MANY WORDS for this book, it’s not even funny.

Nasty, lustful, unapologetic rape fantasy, wolf gangbang with not a trace of romance to be found in this depraved piece of kinky guilty pleasure. This book is pure, hardcore erotica at it’s best. Which means –  quite frankly – it’s not for everyone.

Even after all this time, I *still* don’t know what star rating to give this one. On one hand, this was definitely a guilty, filthy, delicious pleasure for me. On the other, I… I just couldn’t.

I think… I just simply won’t star this one.

Yeah. Yeah that sounds like a good plan to me. o__________o

Because if I did I would have to give it both a 1 AND 4.5 star rating for being both utterly disturbing and purely PWP, but also HOT. Like.. really… REALLY HOT. Would I buy this for myself? HELL YES. Did I have moments of “WTF?!” …HELL YES. Did I like it?  … HELL. FRIGGIN’. YES.

I think my biggest problem with this book is… that god-awfully misleading cover. I mean, it looks like your typical gay wolf shifter romance book with flowers and kisses and hugs and sweet caresses – which is SOOO not what this atrocious, 80-pager of a guilty pleasures is.

._______.

NOT. AT. ALL.

I would even go so far as to complain to the publisher to get that cover changed because… Good GODS, so many people are going to be traumatized by this book thinking it’s something it really, REALLY isn’t.

Tame A Wild Human is in no way a romance. Let me make this VERY CLEAR. This is… this is Stockholm syndrome + drugged up coercion + psychological breaking = “I’ll do whatever you want just make me feel good and don’t kill me pleasepleasePLEASE.” ._____. That’s what this is.

And lots of sex.

Because… well… SEX.

That’s really about it.

To describe the book in a quote from its pages:

“You need a dick in this ass, human. A lot of dicks. Fortunate for you that you’ll be fucked in abundance. Now shut up.”

It is an unreserved hardcore gangbang porno, primal and depraved, and unapologetically nasty. It’s sole purpose is to get you off, not make you swoon with pretty words or melt the frigid cold of one’s heart. There is no world-building, no relationship development, no character development, no plot or storyline besides a couple lines to explain why all this shit is happening. Then it’s repeated raping, gangraping, drugging, and more raping, humiliation and carnal degradation until it comes to its conclusion. Of more sex.

And some “Good boy *patpat* I think I’ll keep you because you haven’t displeased me yet.”

Yup. That’s it. End story. Move right along.

The best part about it was the intensity of the sex. What do you call it? The “heat level,” I believe? Yeah. That shit was THROUGH THE ROOF. It was erotic as all hell. You could slowly fall into the submission of Wyatt (the main character) as he began to give in, as the drugs began to do their work and rewire his brain, as he began to… want it. It was watching like the downward spiral of an addict as they go from clean, never touched a thing before to wanting their hourly fix or bump or hit again and again and again.

It was shameful. It was a debauchery. It was really good. It was like being possessed for a short 80-pages of your life.

This is why I can’t give it a rating, why even writing up a review is hard. Because it’s soooo WRONG, and yet really, REALLY good. I wonder if this is like what it feels like to be a devote Catholic or Christian when they say they’re wrestling with good and evil?

Yeah. Yeah this might just qualify for such a statement.

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As to any warnings I would give…

SO MANY. SADFGHULJKHFDG Uhh… okay, first off crazy all over the place trigger warning for this entire book. I would not let anyone read this book unless they fully knew what they were getting themselves into.

So to recap, we’ve got: rape, gangrape, humiliation, sexual humiliation, lots and lots of sex, non-con, Stockholm syndrome, abuse, explicit savage violence, hatefucking, psychological breaking, psychological and sexual training, objectification, abduction, drugging, torture… and that’s just in the first few pages.

Now I know someone people consider this book BDSM, but… I really, REALLY do not consider this BDSM. D/s? Okay. I’ll give you that. This is a wolf hierarchy here. But BDSM? I mean, from my albeit limited understanding of the BDSM world… even then there are rules. And both participants want what is happening. So it’s consensual, even if it’s fantasy rape/non-con/abduction/whathaveyou. It’s a FANTASY and thus something both want to enjoy and participate in. No matter how dangerous it can get.

But this book?

This book is about actual viciously repeated rape, abduction, drugging, gangbanging and whatnot where the main guy who this is happening to ISN’T EVEN GAY, he’s NOT into BDSM or anything even close to any of this, is only doing this because he DOES NOT WANT TO DIE, HAS NEVER HAD SEX WITH A GUY BEFORE, and furthermore is being fucked – repeatedly – in order to be BROKEN, not pleasured or because he wants it. But because the wolves fucking him do not see him as anything more than a hole to be used to sate their desire and – at best – an unfortunate, wicked creature to be molded into their perfect fucktoy.

Ta-da! 😀

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I’m gonna be over here if you need me. Yeah. Over here.

Please. For all that is good and holy, do not read this book unless you are absolutely sure you want to, are reading it as fantasy porn, or are really fucked up in the head like I am and was CURIOUS after reading a review much like this one and ended up love-hating it as I do now. T_____T

I should feel bad about enjoying this book, but today is not that day.

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Would I recommend?

I would recommend this book ONLY IF you are looking for a really hot ‘n kinky with no plot whatsoever, but HOT, non-con scenes and hurt-comfort-Stockholm-syndrome, weirdest-boner-right-now and/or weirdest-lady-boner-right-now book that you can read by yourself where no one can EVER KNOW.

However. If you’re looking for plot, or ANYTHING remotely consisting of a story, then please don’t. You’ll be traumatized FOR LIFE. I will not be responsible for the damage done to your eyes and your brain.

Otherwise, ENJOY.

And I mean it. ❤

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5Track PLAYLIST & LYRICS

(Because one song just isn’t enough.)

1. A Perfect Circle – The Hollow

~LYRICS IN THE SONG THAT RESONATE STRONGEST~
(The whole song)

Run desire run
Sexual being
Run him like a blade
To and through the heart
No conscience
One Motive
Cater to the hollow

Screaming feed me here
Fill me up again
Temporarily pacify this hungering
So grow
Libido throw
Dominoes of indiscretions down
Falling all around
In cycles
In circles
Constantly consuming
Conquer and devour

2. Zilch – Fucktrack #6
(HIGHLY Sexually Explicit Song; VERY, VERY NSFW)

~LYRICS IN THE SONG THAT RESONATE STRONGEST~
(The whole song works, but these lyrics in particular…)

I am absolute corruption
Absolute corruption
(I wanna fuck you… in the ass… Until you bleed!)
I am the power that sways
I am the beast that’s in human nature
I am the masonry of greed
Tease me, please me, don’t believe me
I will suck and fuck the very heart of you
Into two
Need me, bleed me, don’t believe me
I will separate every fucking part of you
Into two
3. Placebo – My Sweet Prince

~LYRICS IN THE SONG THAT RESONATE STRONGEST~
(There’s something about this whole song that just WORKS.)

Never thought you’d make me perspire.
Never thought I’d do you the same.
Never thought I’d fill with desire.
Never thought I’d feel so ashamed.
4. Queens of the Stone Age – Sick, Sick, Sick

~LYRICS IN THE SONG THAT RESONATE STRONGEST~

Eternal eclipse in the teeth of the risk,
The tounge is a twist in perpetual bliss ,
Forever midnight forever midnight…,
Sick, Sick, Sick,
Don’t resist,
Sick, Sick, Sick,
Don’t resist,
(I’m gonna change,
I don’t wanna change),
Sick, Sick, Sick,
Don’t resist,
Sick, Sick, Sick,
Don’t resist
5. Savage Garden – Break Me, Shake Me

~LYRICS IN THE SONG THAT RESONATE STRONGEST~

I never thought I’d change my
opinion again
But you moved me in a way that I’ve
never known
You moved me in a way that I’ve
never known
But straight away you just moved
into position again
You abused me in a way that I’ve
never known
You abused me in a way that I’ve
never known

[chorus:]
So break me shake me hate me
take me over
When the madness stops then you
will be alone
Just break me shake me hate me
take me over
When the madness stops then you
will be alone

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Reason for choosing these songs

I don’t know if it was during or after reading the book that these songs became to resonate with me and THIS SICK (AMAZING) BOOK.

Though there really isn’t anything to spoiler in this thing… I’ll be vague-ish and only comment on the ones that really seem like, “UM, WHAT???”

Track 1: Wolves song during a full moon cycle (to their prey). Or likewise just Cole’s song (to Wyatt, perhaps? or to just anyone who’d help fill his hunger and lust).

Track 2: This entire song is… about… nasty, kinky, painful sex. It’s basically the book’s theme song. End of story. (Plus that heavy beat just makes you think “Drugged, Fucked out of one’s mind, and Addicted to whatever comes one’s way.”)

Track 3: I see this as the song to capture a soul-deep change in Wyatt. Once Wyatt’s seriously been “tamed” and even starts thinking of Cole as “his wolf” and tries to play games with him later in the book, only to have everything backfire on him… kinda

Track 4: Probably a Cole to Wyatt song.

Track 5: Always think of this as my reckless abandon song. It’s one that gets put to a lot of books or playlist I make if the situation calls for it. In this case…. THE SITUATION CALLS FOR IT.


[Book TBBReview] In Despair (Princes of the Blood, Book 3)

In Despair

(Princes of the Blood, Book 3)

Megan Derr

What rating would you give it?
4.5 of 5 Stars

Give us a summary.

(Taken from GoodReads)
Prince Telmé Guldbrandsen has been groomed since childhood to become a Prince of the Blood and Commander of the Legion. He will be the youngest person to ever take the Blooding—if he can behave long enough to prove he can be trusted with the responsibility. But behaving is difficult when he is constantly forced to endure Korin: heir to the Reach of the House and the Temple of the Sacred Three, and the snotty brat Telmé is expected to someday marry.

Then the unthinkable happens, leaving Castle Guldbrandsen—and the Legion—in pieces. Overwhelmed by fear and grief, Telmé convinces Korin to help him attempt the impossible. But rather than relief, Telmé’s triumph is met with anger and rejection …

What did you think of the book?

Note of point, I originally sorta skimmed In Despair on 1/22/15, but didn’t actually pick up the book to read until later. 🙂

Now, onto the review!

I gotta say, this wasn’t what I was expecting. AT ALL.

Thankfully, that means it was FANTASTIC and HIGHLY ENTERTAINING and WHOLLY PRECIOUS all rolled up in one.

I think, this one might just be my favour–second favourite in the series. XD I don’t know if I can ever like it better than the first book, which absolutely captured my imagination and made me fall in love with the wonder of this world, its characters, its customs, and its obvious build-up of potential storytelling that only grew and grew with each and every book. As I mentioned before in my review of With Pride, I truly love the aspect of moving backwards in time as you read each novel of this series, how with each book it builds on the last even as you descend further and further back in the original cast of characters’ lives. This story tells of the fateful events that led to Telme and Korin becoming the serious power-couple they are, as the youngest EVER Commander of the Legion and High Priest of the Sacred Three. I always wanted to know how they came to be who they were, ever since the first book when it was so obvious there was a story to be told there. I couldn’t have been happier with the results this book provided.

Now, lemme first start by saying — what little shits you both were! XDDD

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oh my GOD you are both SO annoying but I can’t help but love you even more anyway ❤

What I really, REALLY did not understand, or perhaps didn’t grasp from the first novel, was that they were betrothed and – at least in Telme’s case – Blooded so young. (Telme wasn’t so bad since he was at least 17, but damn! Korin was only 15!) Furthermore, I didn’t realize they were such… oh, what’s the word? oh yes – BRATS for pretty much the duration of their ENTIRE younger lives. XD Hell – in fact, they never grew out of it (which I LOVE, by the way! XD) and continued to be as infuriating as they grew older. They just got a lot better at hiding it in front of others. XD I was really happy to be able to see them in a light that showed… that they were normal, average teenagers too. (Well, as normal and average as one could be given their circumstances.) They fought each other. They got emotional. They were both the most adorable crybabies, completely warranted for crying at the horrifying, COMPLETELY UNWARRANTED, fucked up, unbelievable events that literally turned their lives upside-down in a matter of days. And then kept their lives IN DESPAIR (aha? Aha? See what I did there? ;D ;D ) for longer than I think MY OWN sanity would have allowed before I tore the whole kingdom down and showed them what it means to be a half-demon.

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Which only shows that Telme is seriously a better person than me. I wouldn’t have endured that crap for as long as he did. And Korin, too – although he needed to stop whining so much throughout the book. That’s probably my only quip. That, and the abrupt… uh… sorta ending because I would have really liked to see what happened after they walked into that hall [highlight for spoiler] after they defeated the Incubus and went to check to see if people still hated their guts or not[/end spoiler]. I also think the book would have been better had Korin’s side of the story been seen as much as Telme’s… Y’know. So we could get the chance to sympathize a little more with his troubles and worries, instead of just hearing him complain about it or only seeing it from Telme’s occasional glimpses into the disrespectful actions of the Priests and the rest of the Legion towards him. Those mere glimpses seemed overshadowed by the utter ridiculousness of Telme’s situation, and I think if we had followed Korin around in some chapters instead of Telme, seen how bad it was for him as well, I (at least) would have had a bit more sympathy for him. As it was, I often found myself groaning whenever I heard Korin once again go off in a rage, and only sometimes caught myself to remember that he had it just as bad, if not worse in the long run.

That being said… I really enjoyed this book. I wasn’t quite expecting some of the theatrics those two pulled in their misadventures or the turn of events that transpired in the walls of Castle Guldbrandsen, but hell, was it an amazing ride!

Highly recommended!

Any warnings you wish to make for your readers?

Ehh… not really. There’s the usual blood and gore and youngins in bad situations, but nothing too horrific or graphic that you’ll lose your stomach. Some underage sexual situations, but no actual sex in this book.

Does it count towards any reading challenges?

As per usual:

Would you recommend this book?

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I think I said that already!

A P.S. for any potential readers: Although this series does NOT have to be read in order, I have the feeling that the reader would enjoy it better if read in its proper book order (books 1-2-3) and not in its time order (books 3-2-1). And if anyone wants to completely skip around, I would still suggest this book be read last. Something about… getting to meet these two in their older and, ehem, “wiser” selves first AND THEN reading about their teenage bumbling (and super-duper-holy-crap-rockin-woozers! heroics, too) makes it so much more… refreshing, I guess? It all sorta comes full circle to see that underneath those masks of professionalism are still two boys, who are still brats, but are also still so very much in love.

Reviewed by AMS (amomentsilence)

Publisher: Less Than Three Press
Publication Date: July 2014
Format: ebook, RvC
Pages: 221
Genre / Themes: Medieval Fantasy, Bisexual,
Paranormal, M/M Romance, Magic, QUILTBAG /
LGBTQUIA, Shifters, Demons, Pseudo-vampires,
Coming of Age, Idiot Teenagers, Royalty,
Nobility, Misunderstanding, War, Monsters,
Arranged Marriages, Love+Hate Relationships
Age: Young Adult / Adult (I think…)
Reviewer: AMS (amomentsilence)
Source: Provided upon request by Publisher/Author
Challenge2015 Good Reads Reading Challenge (21),
52 Books in 52 WeeksYou Read How Many Books?,
Read A Million Pages105 Reading Challenge,
Readathon Day 2015, 2015 LGBT Reading Challenge,
2015 Monthly Motifs & Keyword Reading Challenge,
Ethereal 2015,

[A Book RE-READ Review] The Elf and Shoemaker

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M.L. Rhodes

What rating would you give it?
5+++++++++++++++ of 5 Stars
(I adore this book. Like, you do NOT even know. To me, this book can do no wrong asdfghjkl;lkhgfdsas)

Give us a summary.

(Taken from Goodreads)
Logan Shoemaker’s honest, hardworking, and loves what he does. Though he never expects to get rich, he’s fared well enough to stay comfortable with his quirky metaphysical store, Shoemaker’s Magick Shoppe. But when the economy falls on hard times, his store pays the price. As each month passes, slow sales turn into no sales, and soon Logan’s living off ramen noodles and sleeping in a freezing house during the cold winter nights as he struggles to make ends meet. His personal life isn’t much better—the worse business at the store grows, the more isolated and lonely he becomes. After a string of mishaps that wipe out the last of his small savings, he finally hits rock bottom the day he discovers the disconnection notice from the electric company hanging on his door. That night, desperate and in despair, he makes a plea to the universe, asking for help.

Needless to say, he never anticipates receiving a response so quickly. Not only does he awaken the next morning to find on his kitchen table four little bottles of a special potion labeled “PASSION,” but he keeps remembering the erotically charged dream he’d had during the night. A dream where a tall, gorgeous man with pointed ears comes to his bed and shows him just what kind of magick they can make together.

But was it a dream? All Logan knows is that his customers can’t get enough of the special potion—an aphrodisiac—and he can’t stop thinking about the sweet seduction of the nighttime visitor who made it. As he tries to sort out what’s real and what’s not, he discovers there’s a much bigger world out there than he’d ever believed, and his true heart’s desire might come in a most unexpected form…

What did you think of the book?

I honestly read this book at least a few times every year. Not for tradition or anything, simply because I love it so. Sometimes I’ll think back to it and say, “Oh, I wonder where it is…? I should read it again and see how they’re doing.” I kid you not. This little book has such a warm spot in my heart that I actually think of it and Logan and Hallan as old friends that I need to check on every so once in awhile. I just don’t know what it is about it… that’s just how I feel. :<

I don’t know what it is about the story that draws me to it so… It’s a romance, yes…. but there’s something else about it that’s so charming and… believable, too…. that I just can’t help going back for more. I’ve even created scenarios in my mind as to what’s happened to them since the end of the book. What adventures (or should I say misadventures) they’ve had trying to navigate their newly shared life together… this whole new world Hallan’s never been to before. For such a tiny book (barely a hundred pages) there’s SO MUCH WORLD-BUILDING, IT ISN’T EVEN FUNNNY. And it’s done tastefully so as not to overwhelm the reader with WAAAAY too much information all at once. In a short amount of pages, M.L. Rhodes has created an entire TWO WORLDS with substances and politics, history and depth. The magic actually makes sense, as does their romance. It’s kind of adorable too, because… though some (more cynical folk) might find some moments in it to be unbelievable, I would have to say – if you can watch a movie about a girl with magically enchanted HEALING HAIR that’s miles and miles long (AND HEAVY AS ALL HELL, TOO – LET’S NOT FORGET ABOUT THAT, even as she prances around like it weighs nothing) then you can read a short novella about a young man who finds out he has a magic mirror in his shop and a handsome elf on the other end just waiting to be able to reach through and finally meet him face to face (and body to body ehem *COUGHCOUGH*).

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Sometimes I wish there was a sequel to this book… but then I realize I’m glad there isn’t one. It gives me the chance to make up whatever stories I see fit to follow this enchanted tale and lovely characters. asdfghjkl;lkjhg~~

Would you read this book again?

HA! You’re not seriously asking me that after I’ve just gushed all over this post, now are you?

Any warnings you wish to make for your readers?

None whatsoever. Except… y’know… beware of a possible and sudden onset of obsessive compulsion towards the book wherein you feel the urgent need to hold said book to your chest and stroke it muttering, “My preeeeccciiiooousssssssssss” upon completion OR DURING the reading of said book.

Because… y’know… that’s tend to happen. *EHEM* Occasionally. >.> Possibly every time I look at it on my bookshelf. *COUGHXOUGH* WHAAT? No! I don’t do that! What are you talking about? Ha ha ha… you must be mistaken. <A<;; You read no such thing only a moment ago.

No such thing. .____.

Does it count towards any reading challenges?

Yeah. I wasn’t really “reading” it for anything… but obviously it counts towards The Re-Read Reading Challenge, but also for these as well:

Would you recommend this book?

What do you think?

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Reviewed by AMS (amomentsilence)

Publisher: Amber Quill Press / Amber Allure
Publication Date: 2009
Format: Paperback
Pages: 120
Genre & Themes: Love, M/M Romance,
QUILTBAG / LGBTQUI, Elves, Magical World,
Alternative World, Elf Mirror, Royalty, Magic,
Contemporary, Fantasy
Age: Adult
Reviewer: AMS (amomentsilence)
Source: Bought
Challenge2015 Good Reads Reading Challenge (29),
52 Books in 52 WeeksYou Read How Many Books?,
2015 LGBT Reading Challenge, Read A Million Pages,
105 Reading Challenge (Category: 3, 4, 5, 8, 9),
The Re-Read Reading ChallengeEthereal 2015,
2015 Monthly Motifs & Keyword Reading Challenge

[Book Review] Travels With Penny by David Morrison

Travels With Penny: True Travel Tales of a Gay Guy and His Mom

David Alan Morrison

What rating would you give it?
4 of 5 Stars

Is there anything special going on for this book right now? 

Yup! There’s a virtual blog tour and giveaway going on right now. It’s ending on the 1st though, so enter while you still can!!

Also, I created an 8tracks playlist for the book from the author’s selection of roadtrip and character related songs. Go check it out here

Give us a summary.

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Two things flashed through my mind when I opened the door to the sex shop to find my mother standing in front of the display case talking to a tall salesman wearing a leather harness, jock strap and a dog collar. The first was, “Oh, crap!” The second was, “I hate it when Dad’s right.”

Thus begins David Alan Morrison’s hilarious memoir about the evolution of a family. Following the sudden death of his right-wing, conservative father, a middle-aged, liberal gay guy struggles with the idea of his own mortality by reminiscing about the quirky travel experiences he shared with his gregarious mother. Told through a combination of journal entries, random thoughts and interviews, TRAVELS WITH PENNY takes us on an adventure both funny and touching as David tries to make sense of seemingly random vacations that, somehow, weaved a new relationship with his estranged parents. As he and Penny travel through an Amsterdam hash bar, a New York gay theatre and the most conservative states in the USA, they learn that the events of their stormy past does not mean they must face the future in a broken relationship. They learn love trumps traditional notions of “family,” despite the pain of change and a society filled with anti-LGBT bias.

What did you think when you first started the book?

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PFFFFFTTTTTT this book is hilarious. Good gods man! If you have a mother, then you will understand this poor guy’s plight. xDDDDD The whole sex shop scene was probably the best thing ever. That and his mom being an evil lady and tattling on him to his father. xD I could just hear them all so clearly in my mind. I just know, this is going to be an awesome read.

Final Thoughts?

It was great. Just like I thought it would be! I don’t think I could have asked for better. I typically don’t read nor particularly like memoirs (even fictional ones), but this? This was perfection! It was told like any great story would be, except you realize… “Wait. Wait this ACTUALLY HAPPENED. That makes it 10,000x better. XD” You sympathize with the characters, see yourself in some of the crazy happenings that befall this adventurous duo (and friends, as they’re often accompanied by a colorful entourage as well), and even find yourself equally embarrassed, mortified, or spleen-splitting laughin’-your-ass-off from the things that come out of people’s mouths. (I know I certainly did! It will never ceased to amaze me…)

A truly insightful piece, riddled with laughter and good times. Anyone who has a parent can sympathize even if they have never been in the situations depicted in this memoir. A great read! Don’t miss out on it! You’ll be rolling in laughter for days.

Any warnings you wish to make for your readers?

There’s lots of innuendo in this book, but it’s not raunchy or anything. It’s comedy, so there are moments of clean comedy and moments of not-so-clean comedy. You decide. I

Does it count towards any reading challenges?

Yup! A whole bunch. xD

Would you recommend this book?

Yes, it is so quotable and funny and—

Reviewed by AMS (amomentsilence)

Publisher: Booktrope
Publication Date: April 2015
Format: eBook, RvC
Pages: 139
Genre & Themes: Parents, Travel, Children,
Dealing With Loss, Coming Together, Grief,
Acceptance, LGBT (mostly gay) themes, Humor,
Comedy, Real Life, Memoir
Age: Adult
Reviewer: AMS (amomentsilence)
Source: Provided by Good Tales Book Tours (GTBT)
Challenge:  2015 Good Reads Reading Challenge (67),
52 Books in 52 WeeksYou Read How Many Books?,
2015 LGBT Reading Challenge, Read A Million Pages,
105 Reading Challenge2015 New To You

[Book Review] Lukos Heat by Megan Derr

Lukos Heat

Megan Derr

What rating would you give it?
3 (maybe 3.5) of 5 Stars

Give us a summary.

(Taken from GoodReads)
Najlah is on the hunt for the traitorous coward who attempted to assassinate the king and nearly killed Najlah’s brother in the process. But the hunt has taken his team deep into the Shide, the treacherous, freezing mountains controlled by the mysterious Lukos, feral wolf shifters who do not tolerate trespassers.

When the Lukos come upon them, Najlah is reluctantly intrigued. The Lukos, especially the one called Barkus, are nothing like the soft humans he spends most of his time around. They thrive in the brutal cold the way he thrives in volcanic fire. For the first time, it feels like Najlah may have found someone who can equal the fierceness of dragons, and see them as more than demons.

But if he hopes to explore the bond forming with the Lukos, he must first survive the enemy—and the Shide.

What did you think of the book?

I actually enjoyed this book, but I wasn’t 100% sold. I’ve read better by Megan Derr, so I can’t give it the high ratings I normally would. As per usual, I love, love, LOVE her grumpy characters and interesting dragons. XD They’re so ridiculously loveable, it isn’t even funny.

However, this story was waaaay too info-dumpy especially in the stilted dialogue, with equally too many odd moments for side-tracked conversation. That was easily my biggest problem with this book. I’ve seen much better writing from Megan Derr, so I’m a little disappointed on that aspect. But other than that, the world-building was good. There needs to be more of it, and the story needs to be way WAAAY longer, but you get enough of this world to understand most (although not all) of what is going on and why.

The plot was a bit weak and uninteresting, but it made up for it in the characters — specifically the character interaction. (My favourite moments are the ones that play out between the brothers. They’re ridiculous, and precious, and gods — where are they now to brighten my day? Silly dragons. xD)

And on that note, I did actually like all of the main and supporting characters, however I could *not* get over the really dumb name of “Barkus,” for a WOLF shifter. It’s just too… it wasn’t even funny after awhile. @__@  Other than that, the characters are great. I absolutely love Derr’s interpretation of dragons in this book and what we’ve learned of their society, culture, sexes/genders/roles in their dens, and personalities. I just wished everything didn’t seem so… so… scripted. Like I opened an encyclopedia on Tahjili dragons.

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Also all of the characters need to stop eating dictionaries and just spewing information out of their mouth like an out of control fax machine.

Yet still! All in all, I *did* like it. I’m just on the fence as to whether or not I’d ever recommend it to anyone.

Any warnings you wish to make for your readers?

Uhh… although I wouldn’t call it bestiality, there is a scene where the characters have sex in their shifted forms so… beware~~ And all that jazz.

Does it count towards any reading challenges?

Obviously. XD It was done for the NetGalley & Edelweiss challenge, but also worked perfectly for the 2015 The Eclectic Reader (#2 A Book set in a country starting with the letter S) reading challenge. It also fits into all these:

Would you recommend this book?

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I’m still not sure. I mean… maybe. Yeah. I think so. I dunno. It was an interesting read, even if it did seem very… incomplete. I just wished it was longer and not so… “word-dumpy” in the dialogue. If you can get passed that, then you’ll enjoy it as a quickie read.

Reviewed by AMS (amomentsilence)

Publisher: Less Than Three Press
Publication Date: December 2013
Format: ebook
Pages: est. 58
Genre / Themes: Romance, Gender
Study, QUILTBAG / LGBTQUI, Coming
of Age, Historical Fiction, Sex, Nudity,
Friendship (Male Friendship), Gender & Sexual
Identity & Study, Fantasy, Betrayal, War,
Peace, Warring Nations, Holiday Short,
Holiday Celebration, Master And Slave (non-
sexual), Social Injustice, Social Hierarchy
Age: Young Adult (I think…)
Reviewer: AMS (amomentsilence)
Source: Index From Author’s Website
Challenge2015 Good Reads Reading Challenge (18),
52 Books in 52 WeeksYou Read How Many Books?,
2015 New To You Reading Challenge,
Read A Million Pages105 Reading Challenge,
Readathon Day 2015, 2015 LGBT Reading Challenge,
The Eclectic Reader (#2 A Book Set In A Country
Starting With The Letter S
),

[Book Review] Re-creation by Dusk Peterson

Re-creation

(Part of The Three Lands universe)

Dusk Peterson

What rating would you give it?
4.5 of 5 Stars

Give us a summary.

(Taken from GoodReads)
“He could not leave this room without his father’s permission. And he could not imagine going to his father and saying, ‘Please let me go gather moss so that my slave can have a proper New Year for once.'”

What can you give a slave who, by law, can own nothing? That is the question faced by Peter, the teenage heir to the throne of an empire. Despite his father’s desire that the imperial heir maintain a formal distance from servants, Peter finds himself drawn in friendship to the younger boy who serves as his slave.

But a shocking revelation on the eve of the New Year forces Peter to confront his own motives for keeping the slave close by. And that in turn will help him understand the deeper meaning of the gift-giving festival.

This coming-of-age novelette on gender and sexual identity is a holiday tale that can be read on its own or as a side story in The Three Lands, a fantasy series on friendship, romance, and betrayal in times of war and peace. The series is inspired by conflicts between nations during the Roman Empire and the Dark Ages.

What did you think of the book?

Huh.

This is yet another unexpectedly awesome read by Dusk Peterson. I think, moreso than the themes he likes to write about, it’s the way in which he tells stories, the characters, the… the real meat of the message being told that I like—that I LOVE.

I found this particular story very… endearing. Most probably because the characters were so young and yet so “wise beyond their years;” in particular Andrew, who most assuredly grew up far too soon during his harsh time as a slave. I found this a very thoughtful and critical piece, something that can easily be turned into a prequel or starter for a series.

If there are more books being made (or have already been made) I would very much want to read them.

NOW.

I am unabashedly curious as to where their complex relationship will take them, and furthermore to the reform and possible deconstruction of unjust and cruel societal hierarchies, magistrates, and laws that could occur once Peter (the other boy) becomes the new Chara.

Or might not.

One thing I would like to make very clear… is that this book is in no way considered M/M romance, but more M/M friendship. I don’t know if in the rest of the series (ya know, when they’re actually older) if they ever become more than “just friends,” but even if they do not… the relationship between the two is truly enthralling to watch unfold.

I think that in today’s more – ehem –”accepting” society, far too many people are far too quick to jump to the conclusion that just because the story revolves around two guys who are close, that they must be banging each other. This story could certainly disprove this belief, yet show that a friendship story is just as captivating and endearing as any M/M romance.

Any warnings you wish to make for your readers?

I get the impression that if there are other stories in this universe, those might be a bit graphic and violent… but this story was without anything too remarkably disturbing. At least in graphic detail, at any rate.

Is it available to read for free? Where can I purchase it?

It’s actually a free ebook, so you can download it from any of these sources here:

Gumroad | AR | Smashwords | Amazon Kindle

Does it count towards any reading challenges?

Yup! A whole bunch. xD

Would you recommend this book?

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I’d think so. Even to those unfamilar with the rest of the series. I mean, I really enjoyed it, and I didn’t have the slightest idea it was part of a series. The story works well as a stand-alone, and I think the story behind these two young boys would definitely make the reader want to pick up the rest of the series to read what happens to them as they get older (and what already happened to them to lead them to the point where they meet in Re-creation).

Reviewed by AMS (amomentsilence)

Publisher: Love in Dark Settings Press
Publication Date: December 2013
Format: ebook
Pages: est. 58
Genre / Themes: Romance, Gender
Study, QUILTBAG / LGBTQUI, Coming
of Age, Historical Fiction, Sex, Nudity,
Friendship (Male Friendship), Gender & Sexual
Identity & Study, Fantasy, Betrayal, War,
Peace, Warring Nations, Holiday Short,
Holiday Celebration, Master And Slave (non-
sexual), Social Injustice, Social Hierarchy,
POC (Person/People of Color)
Age: Young Adult (I think…)
Reviewer: AMS (amomentsilence)
Source: Index From Author’s Website
Challenge2015 Good Reads Reading Challenge (18),
52 Books in 52 WeeksYou Read How Many Books?,
2015 New To You Reading Challenge,
Read A Million Pages105 Reading Challenge,
Readathon Day 2015, 2015 LGBT Reading Challenge,

Books ‘N Tunes #3: Silver Diamond (v.20)

Welcome back to another installment of my Books ‘N Tunes Reading Challenge!

This week I’ve got another two song for one book. Although, this time it’s more like one song for the book itself, and the other song for the entire series. 🙂

Silver Diamond #20: Before The Storm
by Sugiura Shiho

Publisher: Tosuisha
Publication Date: May 2010
Format: electronic, scans
Pages: est. 150+
Genre: M/M Romance, War, Love, Twins,
Trust, Science Fiction, Fantasy, Isolation
Issues, Psi Abilities, Alternative Worlds,
Telekinetic Powers, Survivors, Betrayal,
Telepathy, Puppets, Dying World, Plants,
Nature, Environment, Genetically Engineered
People & Creatures, Family, Friendship,
Manga, Shounen Ai, Slashy, Lost Memories
Age: OT / Young Adult
Reviewer: AMS (amomentsilence)
Source: Scanlations by Amato Empire
Challenges: 2015 Good Reads Reading Challenge (30),
52 Books in 52 WeeksYou Read How Many Books?,
2015 LGBT Reading Challenge (OTHER/SA),
Read A Million PagesEthereal 2015Books N Tunes,
105 Reading Challenge (Category: 2, 4, 8, 9),
The Re-Read Reading Challenge
2015 Graphic Novel and Comic Reading Challenge
,
2015 Monthly Motifs & Keyword Reading Challenge
(Motif: SEPT; Furry Friends = Ko, Kuro, the
stone birds & many others
 / Keyword: SEPT;
Color 
= Silver),

SUMMARY

(synopsis taken from Publisher)

The Ayame Prince speeding up the destruction versus Hoshiminokoto guiding the people versus Rakan and the rest making their way to the final steps to the capital!! Where will the fight to seize their fates lead to?! The 4 page extras are a must-see ☆ They all join in a pillow fight!!


REVIEW

This review can also be found on GoodReads

This one gets 5 Stars.

I think every single book in this series gets 5 stars. I can’t not give this book 5 stars because… though it has moments of slow, filler pages at times… everything eventually leads back to the complex and rich plot of this strange alternate world.

I still have absolutely NO idea what the heck is going on with Hoshiminokoto or his plans with this world, Chigusa, Rakan, the Ayame Prince, and Kinrei… but I feel like we’re definitely heading towards an epic reveal soon! I think it might happen in the next book or the one right after, depending on how long it actually takes them to get to the Capitol.

Also, I still think the guy’s a creep and needs to seriously stay the fuck away from Chigusa. o___o I’m absolutely with Rakan and the rest of the Guard on this one! Everyone needs to make a protective shield around him and just keep all the haters away.

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Oh yeah. And I’m just going putting this out there:

This book had a LOT of feels. Mostly between Kinrei and The Ayame Prince, and Rakan and Chigusa.

And Narushige and his sister…..
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SO. MANY. FEEEEELS.
More than just a little excited to find out what happens next!

As to any warnings I would give…

Hmm… not particularly now that I think about it. 🙂

Would I recommend?

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TUNES

Mary Elizabeth McGlynn – When You’re Gone

Cardigans – Erase & Rewind


Reason for choosing these songs

When You’re Gone by Mary Elizabeth McGlynn is a song I feel works for two relationships: Rakan & Chigusa, as well as The Ayame Prince & Kinrei. I feel like the lyrics really match what’s going on right now in book 20, where so much is being revealed, including how these characters feel for one another. Whether you want to read into it as slashable or not, is entirely up to you. (I certainly do, but that’s just me. :P)

My other song choice is Erase & Rewind by Cardigans which I feel better suits the whole series. I don’t want to give anything away as these are HUGE spoilers for the entire series, but as the series progresses… pretty much every single character finds out that none of them are who they thought they were, and it just goes to show that nothing is what it seems. I feel this song resonates strongest with 3 different themes:

  1. The first is the running theme of people being “puppets” to others, being used either knowingly or otherwise…
  2. The second is the theme of altering memories, losing one’s memories, or reinventing oneself.
  3. And the final is the theme of loneliness, being outcast, or unwanted.

LYRICS

When You’re Gone
Did I wait too long?
Moments gone and now wasted
Coming back to home
It feels wrong, changes haunt me
Ends I came before
Leave me lost, confused, searching
Everything I own
Takes me back nowhere

Objects in my room
They might be telling me something soon
Still you ask me how I feel
I feel lost – that’s how I feel

I know, I know
There’s something I’ve forgotten
Like a time, a place
A shattered memory
For me it’s more
Than I can seem to handle
It’s the pain, my mind
Is writing on the wall
The truth, you lied
You said it can convince you to
Give up, this place
Will never set me free
Enough, I know
I really did it this time
It’s a sign, this place
Is somewhere I should be

Taking a piece of my heart
When you’re gone

Are my eyes too blind
To find illusions from deep inside, growing?
What I lost to find
And what I find brings me here

I know, I know
There’s something I’ve forgotten
Like a time, a place
A shattered memory
For me it’s more
Than I can seem to handle
It’s the pain, my mind
Is writing on the wall
The truth, you lied
You said it can convince you to
Give up, this place
Will never set me free
Enough, I know
I really did it this time
It’s a sign, this place
Is somewhere I should be

Taking a piece of my heart
That’s how it always starts
When you’re gone

 

Erase & Rewind
Hey, what did you hear me say
you know the difference it makes
what did you hear me say

Yes, I said it’s fine before
I don’t think so no more
I said it’s fine before
I’ve changed my mind
I take it back

Erase and rewind
’cause I’ve been changing my mind
I’ve changed my mind

So where did you see me go
it’s not the right way, you know
where did you see me go
No, it’s not that I don’t know
I just don’t want it to grow
It’s not that I don’t know
I’ve changed my mind
I take it back