Hullo my lovelies~ I am returned!
I’ll get straight to the point though. You probably won’t see any posts from me for a little while because of just SO MUCH going on in my life right now. I was supposed to start HauntoberFest before I went away for NYCC… THAT didn’t happen. I wanted to create my own version of Inktober (but with books instead…) but that… ehhhhhh… will probably be postponed to the middle till the end of the month. Day in day out, I am finding myself not having enough hours in the day to come up with new content for you all, and for that I’m sincerely sorry. 😔 I will try to make a really great Post!NYCC entry for you guys as soon as things settle down on my end and I’m over certain traumas associated with my otherwise wonderful weekend.
What I can say for now, is that NYCC was SUPER fun and amazing this year, while also being SUPER wrought with drama and stupidity and strife that no one really needed nor wanted but still happened regardless. I won’t go into details but it would appear a longtime friend and I may no longer be friends after all this, which quite frankly is annoying as fuck but what can you do about it? I’m not going to apologize or beg or try to justify my actions, nor am I going to put up with their bullshit either just because we’re supposed to be “friends”. That relationship is a two-way street, one that they’ve conveniently chosen to ignore or push aside when I thought I could open up about some of the shit I’m going through right now (and even other times before). And they wonder why I’m so damned secretive and such and barely open up. Maybe it’s because—as they’ve proven—no one would believe me, or even if they did they’d try to downplay my suffering and say it can’t possibly be as bad as I say or that I’m lying.
I honestly don’t need that sort of twisted relationship in my life, so if they want to end it… fine. I don’t really get attached to people anyway, as I’ve seen they just let you down—but when you meet some who are there for you and just “get it” without needing explaining or cajoling… it’s really wonderful.
But anyway! Enough of that! I don’t have the time to be concerned with any of this. The shitfest that is my life right now is certainly not waiting around for me to get over or deal with any of this, so I just gotta keep moving, keep doing what needs to be done!
And I have SOOOOO much to do, it isn’t even funny. 😭😭😭😭😭
With that being said, I think I’ll say adieu for now and hopefully see you all soon!
Wish me luck! 😤 I hope all of you stay well and continue reading~