[Reckless Beats] David Bowie, my Hero, radiant star… is gone: a tribute

RECKLESS BEATS is a musical feature where I incorporate a little music into this bookish blog.


I’m sure by now you’ve heard the news. On January 10th, 2016… Our Hero, our Thin White Duke, Our Goblin Prince, and extraordinary Starman, Ziggy Stardust returned to the stars from whence he came.

There really are no words.

The day it happened, I had no clue. Too busy with life and its madness, I knew nothing of the pain that would befall me the following day when my mother — so carelessly — said before I went out the door that morning for work, “Did you hear? David Bowie died yesterday.”

I remember being numb with shock, and sort of brushed it off. I didn’t have time for this right now. I needed to get to work.

And I did (thankfully) without any mishap.

But as soon as I got there and started getting ready for my day… it hit me. I just stood in my office and couldn’t breath. I felt something shrivel up inside. I couldn’t do anything. The whole day was an utter disaster with me accomplishing nothing but harboring pain and wretched sorrow.

It was like my heart was being crushed and smothered under an invisible weight inside my chest. As though the very same cancer that took him had wormed its way inside of me, too… locking hold, never letting go. I wanted to cry — and, by the way, I NEVER cry — but I couldn’t muster it without falling apart completely. So I soldiered on.

(PS — And by “soldiered on,” I mean I played one Bowie song after another all fucking day like a masochist, inevitably just making me feel worse and worse as the day progressed.)

But somehow I managed to remain at a constant wet-eyed state for 9+ hours until I got home, at which time I promptly run into the bathroom, stripped, and let the shower rain its tears upon my face so no one would ever know… (As if no one would ever know… *pft*)

I don’t know about you, but Bowie was… and IS, a figurehead in my life. He is… music and creativity, gender fluidity and non-apologetic sexuality; he is unique yet wholly relate-able, bizarre and wondrous —

— and literally one of the first people I’d ever known to willing showcase their many “faces” — or personas, if you will — to the world, by becoming them, embracing their strangeness and oddities… unafraid (or perhaps very afraid) of what other people might think.

And now he’s gone.

Since I couldn’t get into my friggin’ blog, I couldn’t even post anything here on Reckless Indulgence when it happened. Truthfully, maybe that was a good thing. I think I needed the time to digest and let it sink in. The world is a duller place now that he is taken from us, but the stars up above do seem a little different now that he’s gone.

As tribute to the man who would be king, I’ll share with you some of the songs that made Bowie my one true hero.

dividerSpace Oddity


Under Pressure (Queen & Bowie Live)

Sound And Vision

Black Star

Ashes To Ashes


As The World Falls Down

Nature Boy (David Bowie & Massive Attack)

Without You I’m Nothing (Placebo & David Bowie)

Magic Dance

Dead Man Walking – acoustic 1997 (on Conan)



Goodbye, dear Starman. I’ll never forget you.

Fill the night sky with your radiant and dazzling light.


We can be Heroes, just for one day…


I’M BACK!! I’M BACK!! (Thank goodness!! @__@)

HELLO EVERYONE! I’m baaaaaaaaaaack~!

S’good to be back! What a crazy few weeks it’s been!

First off, I must apologize for being completely nonexistent here on Reckless Indulgence. I was locked out of my account for about a month and couldn’t find a way back in. I could look at the site, see all your lovely comments and likes and the rest, but could do nothing about it.

Thankfully, everything’s working now and I have full access to my site so we can get this year started, albeit a little late, but started nonetheless. 🙂

dividerYear of 2015 In Review:

…Some end of the year things…

So, let’s see.

  1. We had all the wonderful end of the year holidays and such. (Soon, there will be a few more (at least for me) and then — shockingly — we’ll be in February of 2016! Can you believe that???) Or at least, I should have, but didn’t really get the chance to enjoy it. The last two weeks of December were utter mayhem for me, and didn’t get any better as I continued into 2016. Note of point: I ended the year with a death (on Christmas Day no less 😦 ) and start the year with a funeral (thankfully not on my birthday, the 1st, but on the 3rd instead). Also, the company I work for merged with another company so they decided to screw around and misplace all my information — most importantly my pay info like DAYS before I was supposed to get paid. So yeah. And those were the LEAST hectic things that happened over that period of time. 8D;;;;
  2. Had our first two annual events here on Reckless Indulgence and I think they turned out very well! More information about that down below…
  3. Got a new job back in June — Better pay, though the hours are bleh. Still. Pay = good. Can’t ask for anything more than that, right? 😉
  4. Made some GREAT contacts over the year, especially with publishers, authors, and fellow bloggers. You guys make all of this worthwhile and loads of fun along the way.<3
  5. Reading Challenges. Wasn’t really keeping up with some of my reading challenges in the end months, but I think I still managed to finish most of them, which is INSANELY AWESOME, btw…
    1. 183 of 52. 52 Books in 52 Weeks by Robin of My Two Blessings.  — COMPLETED!
    2. 111 of 24. New To You 2015 Reading Challenge by Herding Cats & Burning Soup.  — COMPLETED!
    3. (At least) 63 of 20. Ethereal 2015 Reading Challenge by Riedel Fascination.  — COMPLETED!
    4. 90 of 52. 2015 Graphic Novels & Manga Reading Challenge by Graphic Novel & Manga Challenge.  — COMPLETED!
    5. 183 of 115. 2015 Good Reads Reading Challenge by GoodReads.  — COMPLETED! See it here.
    6. 129 of 57. LGBT Challenge 2015 by Niji Feels.  — COMPLETED!
    7. 4 of 4. Play On Reading Challenge by Half-Filled Attic.  — COMPLETED!
    8. ?? of 105. 105 Reading Challenge 2015 by Read Write Love 28. (Never got back to…)
    9. 33 of 12. 2015 The Re-Read Reading Challenge by Belle of the Literati and So Obsessed With.  — COMPLETED!
    10. 64 of 50. 2015 NetGalley & Edelweiss Reading Challenge by Falling For YA.  — COMPLETED!
    11. ???? of 1M pgs. Read One Million Pages by Smiling Shelves. (OH MY GOD — WAS NOT KEEPING COUNT AHAHAHA 8D;;;;;;; )
    12. 36 (but then I stopped counting…) of 10. 2015 Books N’ Tunes Reading Challenge by Delighted Reader.  — COMPLETED!
    13. 184 of 115. You Read How Many Books? by Book Dragon’s Lair.  — COMPLETED!
    14. 9 of 12. Monthly Motif & Monthly Keyword by Kim of Bookmark to Blog. (I have 9 confirmed ones, but then I sorta gave up and didn’t do the rest…. Whoops!)
    15. 6 of 12. The Eclectic Reader by Book’d Out.  (I have 6 definites, but I’m not sure about the rest.)
  6. Posts: 395 TOTAL! (Woah…)
    1. Reviews: 64
    2. Book Tours & Blitz: 26
    3. Reckless Beats (Music): 52
    4. Book Spotlight: 63
    5. Book Haul: 7 (aha… sooo much more than this xD)
    6. Bookish Things: 54
    7. TIL (Things I Learned): 6 (ugh… I gotta fix this in 2016…)
  7. (New) Events: 2
    1. HauntoberFest 2015  — SUCCESS!
    2. 2015 Secret Santa Winter Book Bash  — SUCCESS!

All in all, it seems to have been a REALLY good year! 🙂 I hope to do better this year, or at least keep everything going well from here on out. Hopefully the universe won’t try to hinder me (Although this year has not started off on the best note thus far. We’ll have to see… :/)

dividerPlans for the new 2016 Year

I don’t make resolutions, but here are some of the things I’d really like to see myself accomplish in this new year.

  1. Reviews. For all that is good and holy in this world, I need to get back into reviewing books. Even if I don’t get into the long, detailed reviews… I need to REVIEW THE BOOKS I READ.
  2. Read, read, always read. The past month was rough on the reading department. Nowhere near what I normally would accomplish, but RL was insanely rough.
  3. Write more. This one I never thought I would have to say, but truthfully, I haven’t really done as much writing as I used to and that SCARES THE LIVING SHIT OUTTA ME. I have so many ideas inside of me that just need to break loose… So many worlds and characters and stories and lives, loves, and woes that need telling… If anything gets in the way of that I will have to tell them to sod off before I break something.
  4. MORE. MUSIC. Not to say this will ever be a problem, but it might be some sort of cosmic sin if I don’t at least mention it.
  5. Blog consistently. Keep to at least 1-2 posts weekly. Hopefully more, but AT LEAST that. Also, try to add more to these areas:
    1. TIL (Today I Learned)
    2. Book Haul
    3. Book Reviews

That’s it for now!

Once again, it’s good to be back. 😉